Supposed to Be

This isn't how it's supposed to be
 The people I should love most I don't hold close to me
 Now I'm thinking bout the person that I chose to be
 I need to reevaluate what really means the most to me yeah
 My parents wondering where I'm at
 Never pick up the phone well here's a song that answers that
 I been depressed cause there's ideas in my head
 That haven't come to life I'm fearful that my dream is dead
 See I thought that I'd step into the lights by now
 Thought my music would've lived up to the hype by now
 Thinking it was built up in my mind right now
 I could really use a little bit of advice right now yeah
 What's the deal it's the real me all y'all straight up kill me
 Everything in my craft just so you can feel me
 Huh I sacrificed it all for music
 Now I'm about to blow a gasket if this rap producer screw me imma snap
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 I sacrificed it all for music
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 I sacrificed it all for music
 I'm not one to count my blessings
 More likely to count my Twitter followers and mentions
 My parent's set me up for all of this success and I
 Snap because the lack of double taps has got me stressin'
 Social media goin' be the death of me, Rest In Peace,
 pressing keys texting peeps send me beats, I'm desperate anything
 I can't focus at work because my head is playing melodies
 But they don't fuck with my shit cuz I don't rap about felonies
 Tell me this shit ain't raw tell me that my shit is flawed
 Tell me I won't fuck these rappers up
 till they drinking through straws yeah
 I swear to God Imma sell out on my craft
 just start rapping about all of the fucking money I don't have
 But that's the mentality that puts you on a puppet string
 So when I'm home and you asking what's been up with me
 Try and understand the pressure I been going through
 If music doesn't work out the fuck am I supposed to do
 What the fuck am I supposed to do
 If music doesn't work out the fuck am I supposed to do
 What the fuck am I supposed to do
 If music doesn't work out the fuck am I supposed to do