Botanical

I've committed treason
 I didn't know I had
 I could find the reason but
 That would save me plans
 Bathing in the freedom
 And a place to make my own
 Dragging through completion of
 What you've told me and shown
 How can I ignore, what's been inside for so long
 A place to reside, somewhere I belong
 I know I should surrender
 And leave you all behind
 For now I'm a contender to
 Someone else's prize
 Take me where I don't feel behind
 So I don't compare to the other side
 Is something low, No one knows
 How can I ignore, what's been inside for so long
 A place to reside, somewhere I belong
 How can I explore, what's been contrived for so long
 Feelings collide, somehow it seems wrong
 How can I explore
 How can I be sure
 How can I ensure
 What feels so wrong