The Sean Verse

There is a thing called hope and a thing called rope
 I don't know which to go to but I am looking at both
 Hoping to choke, hoping one day not to float
 At the bottom of the ocean and still thinking 'Woah'
 What the fuck are these thoughts that travel my brain?
 Giving me my pain, causing the rain, becoming insane
 I've never had the guts to get up and mention
 But deep down in my head, I got questions
 They know me but they do really know me, see
 They don't spend nights with me while I am crying
 They don't know my thoughts or why I'm pissed off
 Or why I cry or why I drift off at night
 I try to pull it together but it's me
 Don't ever believe me when I say 'It's easy'
 It ain't ever easy, it ain't ever breezy
 My mind's going cold and now it is freezing
 I don't see the point in life anymore
 I said I don't see the point in life anymore
 Do you go through looking for love? Pray up above?
 I don't have enough proof in this to give trust
 People live their whole fucking life looking for success
 They get it when they're old and guess what happens next?
 They dead, no more thoughts in their head
 So where's their money go? It goes to their kids
 And their kids live wealthy and they can eat healthy
 Got maids to wipe their ass and feed their fucking bellies
 But they won't ever learn the struggles of the world
 They'll pay for dates and that's how they'll get girls
 They don't have life skills, they can't fend for themselves
 They can't cook their own food, get chefs to cook meals
 They can't clean their own room, don't worry about bills
 Don't worry about nothing in life but still
 What if I do this? What if I do that?
 What if I live well? What if I smoke crack?
 What if I am kind? What if I am lying?
 Doesn't matter, we'll all end up dying
 I just don't get it, why are people up top?
 Making stacks of this money but there are people who drop
 Who don't make lots, how the fuck is that fair?
 Why do I never get a return on my prayers?
 I made a lot of mistakes, I wanna erase
 I want to forget things but that takes time and space
 I don't know anymore, what is real and fake
 Behind my back, all I feel is hate
 Why can't people just mind their own business?
 Stop saying shit if you ain't a witness
 Keep your mouth shut and stop starting shit
 If you hear shit, don't get up in it
 I know I'm not a smart guy, I'm far from it
 I know I'm not a tough guy, I'm far from it
 I know I'm not a rough, little love muffin fuck
 In the future, I'll probably plummet
 But I am still here, do you see that?
 I ain't dead yet and that is facts
 I making through life, and yeah that is dead right
 Even though my fucking brain is having damn riot
 Is there a God out there that could listen to me?
 That could answer my prayers to be happy, please
 Just listen and do something about it
 I don't want to be sad no more, my head is cracking
 And I just blast fucking music just to drown it out
 And I'm half the man that I say I am out loud
 In the ground is where I keep my thoughts around
 I try stop clowning but can't stop my frowns
 These last couple years, the worst I've ever had
 I learnt about this world and why I hate it so bad
 I learnt about these girls and why I ain't dad
 I learnt about the hurts and why I am sad
 But why is it not going away?
 But why is it not going away?
 But why? Am I wasting away?
 But why? These are the things I got to say
 I can't chill at home with a candle lit
 'Cause all these scandals and all this fuckin' vandal shit
 I'm so done and I cannot handle it
 I'm so done and I cannot handle it
 I'm so done and I cannot handle it
 I'm so done and I cannot handle it
 I can't handle it, I can't handle it
 I can't handle it, I can't handle it!
 Fuck! Cunt!
 Can you relate? To me? To him? To her?
 These feelings up in this fucked up world
 I just want to go somewhere where I can scream
 Please! Please! I don't want it no more
 I just want to be happy, I don't want to go home
 I just want to go out, and I just want to have fun
 But I cannot have fun when I got air in my lungs