Aesthetics

Such hypocrisy
 Such twisted beauty
 Burning desire only to judge
 Fake smile of reassurance
 I have never felt so alone as now
 But I'm not on my own by any stretch
 And so
 This feeling starts to grow
 I want, I hesitate
 The staring, hatred tearing through the air
 I feel like I can't stay because truth it has worn out
 Can't see the light of day for all the insults and doubt
 Isolated, I am warped just like wood in choking heat
 Rarely changes, no matter who you meet
 Sophisticated
 Domesticated
 Generalise, something of a frequency
 The crevasse is deeper than you'll ever see
 Time changes so many things I see
 But this plague it infests perpetually
 And so
 Do you want to know
 My flaws? My past mistakes?
 My deepest deepest insecurites?
 I feel like I can't stay because truth it has worn out
 Can't see the light of day for all the insults and doubt
 Isolated, I am warped just like wood in choking heat
 Rarely changes, no matter who you meet
 Some things are truly beautiful to me
 Aesthetics or morbid irony
 And so
 This feeling will not let go
 Still want, still hesitating
 Don't know just what you're creating
 I'm breaking you keep taking it all
 Too late now I fall into myself
 I feel like I can't stay because truth it has worn out
 Can't see the light of day for all the insults and doubt
 Isolated, I am warped just like wood in choking heat
 Rarely changes, no matter who you meet