The Infinite Loop

Who Am I?
 Just a heap of atoms trying to survive
 Or just a thought
 Of a frowning God with a rigid mien
 Just playing "the mortals"
 Lying in bed
 I go through my life and realize I'm in pain
 Haven't done much right
 Any poignant, thoughtful, heartful quotes for letters
 sold in stores
 And I realize
 The horizon was fringed by a golden layer of hope
 Couldn't really understand
 Guess that's what they call the ultimate
 Leap of faith
 "It's time to wake up
 The first light has come
 the blossoms have flourish
 and the savanna agleam
 the trail has never been evident
 but your feelings have been
 You can make them possible,
 You can make them real,
 if you choose to follow them"
 The first light has come, my eyes see clearer
 But the glow has blinded my path
 Today's gone, tomorrow is the same
 Though I can't seem to get it right
 Everything I used to be collides
 With everything I want to be tonight
 Against what the world says I should be
 A sentry marked to crash the eternal mind
 It hurts to admit I might be afraid
 I cannot bear a change in my life
 Going flat over uphill paths
 Stops my own nature
 And now I'm back again
 Running past the river and tall grass
 There's an eerie house where I used to hide
 And I put away the sense of being
 One with my self as I was told
 Refusing to embrace my gift
 Yeah, the ship that never
 Made it to the sea
 Talents and powers hidden inside of me
 Even started bleeding for somebody else's dreams
 Cast mine aside, I couldn't allow to let go
 It's spinning
 The everlasting circle we are in
 And it's infinite
 Like the mantra that sings for enlightenment
 No shame in crying
 No shame in winning
 No shame in wanting more
 Break the paradigm
 It's in your nature, your veins, in your blood
 Now he's found his way back
 Look what he's become
 That's all he wanted
 The more you have
 The more you can give
 Beyond the confines of this place
 Lies a sacred sage
 A divine oracle
 You've likely never heard... no
 War, division, hunger
 It's what's to follow next
 That's when evil finds its way
 And makes you forget
 Like the sun invades the earth
 Destruction takes its place
 No way out, there's no escape
 'Til ya start listening
 Well, this voice can't be ignored
 Sure it'll be heard
 Crying from the inside out
 Might crack your shell
 Some will call it non-sense
 Some will say insane
 Tune-in words, mind and soul
 Soon will bring me out
 You think you couldn't go lower?
 The worst is happening
 The universe is talking
 It's the storm before the peace
 Hang on tight, take up the change
 And soon you'll realize
 A new task has been knocking at your door tonight
 Divine duality
 You had me going through all this
 And now I think I understand
 I really can
 In darkness, I discern the light
 Being wrong, I'll know when I'm right
 What I want to be, and what I don't
 Who I am, and not