The Whale

All you ever seem to say is, "probably not today"
 And all you ever seem to do is come up with some new excuses
 And I was reaching out
 But hey, I can't wait forever
 And it's true, that new development
 Burning element took your home from you
 Forced your hand to move
 Nothing else to do
 High demand no other plan
 You've got everything to lose
 She's yelling always, all day
 She takes your shit to the hallway
 You're quiet, you hide it
 But your eyes tell what you won't say
 You feel bad, smoke good
 Think about your own dad and how could you
 Carve your name in that rosewood
 You drink, you sniff, you pop
 That might get you through the evening
 God dam this hell is hot
 You flirt, you touch, you fuck
 That might get you to the AM
 Might change a bit of luck
 It's that violence under your eyelids
 You swim to the closest island
 So busy emptying the bottle
 You didn't see the message
 You passed over those passing ships
 Staring at your wreckage
 And you closed every door
 While I was there
 Ready to step in
 All the noise can't prepare you for how quiet that storm gets
 The whale
 The whale
 The whale
 The harpoon
 The whale
 And I was mad at how you shut me out
 How many second chances that you get
 And fuck up
 And I scream get over it
 Knuckle up you fucking chump
 And I know enough
 But that's not enough
 You're loyal as a dog
 And you're sick as one as well
 You try to hide your eyes
 But everyone can tell
 You're so far beneath the floor that
 You can't even see the ceiling
 Waiting on that good old
 That good old feeling
 That knot in your pocket to stop you from sobbing
 Puts a block in your thoughts but it's not stopping your problems
 And I want to say something
 But I'm afraid that'll be nothing
 That all you'l hear is a judgement
 Like somehow I'm above it
 So I turn a cheek and I walk away
 But just this week I heard them say
 What you do with your pay
 And I felt pain, and I felt shame
 And I've done this once before
 When I tried to save my old man from chasing that fish out to sea
 But he was too far out of reach
 Lucky me, he hit bottom
 Washed up safely on the beach
 Not the same for Mikey
 R.I.P EYE
 I think about him every week
 I think about you even more
 Hoping you'll find peace at war
 Or tell yourself to cease fire
 I wrote this in place of writing you a eulogy
 So please excuse my use of—
 It's not my usually
 The whale
 The whale
 The whale
 The harpoon
 The whale