(To Be) Judas

In every new place, in everything new
 I try to adapt, I try to belong
 For a while I think I'm home
 But I cannot stay
 I have to go
 A new kind of feeling, a new kind of pain
 I try to accept, how can I be wrong
 I honestly thought I was home
 But I cannot stay
 Just let me go
 I know what I should feel
 And I know that I don't
 Can you live with the choice I've made
 'Cause I don't wanna fail you
 Define me
 And explain me
 'Cause my head and my heart don't synchronize no more
 Bring truth to the core now, I come undone
 I don't know life, I don't know when
 Everything just changed
 And I must let go
 Of your hand
 Like the burden I'd keep as a child
 I long to spread my wings
 The sky looks like heaven
 And the grass is greener
 Greener on the other side
 I know what I should feel
 And I know that I don't
 Can you live with an open door
 'Cause I don't wanna lose you
 Define me
 And explain me
 'Cause my head and my heart don't synchronize no more
 Am I really the bad guy here
 Or am I just a terrible liar
 Am I even in touch with reality
 Or am I hopelessly blind
 Like the burden I'd keep as a child
 I long to spread my wings
 The sky looks like heaven
 And the grass is greener
 Greener on the other side
 I know what I should feel
 And I know that I don't
 Can you live with a broken heart
 'Cause I don't wanna kill you
 Define me
 And explain me
 'Cause my head and my heart don't synchronize no more
 Define me
 And explain me
 'Cause my head and my heart don't synchronize no more