Dead and Gone

With this pen I gain grip, gangrene finger tip, cigarette stained, chest pain, dope sick
 Im confused, self abused, no rules or amused on, how the world turns, money burns
 Pointless views, everybody's got a little fuckin' story to tell, mines about growing up in A fuckin' hotel, with dreams to excel everybody's expectations, patiently waiting, define
 Complications, so fuckin' far below the poverty line, had my mind inclined to hate mankind
 Macaroni with no cheese, just butter and salt, seventeen years old, angry, charged with assault
 Countless counts of mischief it wasn't my fault, rap music made me do it, plus I was sipping the malt
 Nobody gave a fuckin' shit about me back in the day, this cat was a stray, lost in disarray, I decay
 Now come on!
 I close my eyes, and
 All I see is black
 Memories from the
 Past don't describe
 Where we at man
 Times change, life
 Rolls on, a strange
 Picture is drawn
 Before we dead and
 We gone now
 I close my eyes, and
 All I see is black
 Memories from the
 Past don't describe
 Where we at man
 Times change, life
 Rolls on, a strange
 Picture is drawn
 Before we dead and
 We gone now
 two:
 Hard times is a part of growing up, smoke inhalation, probation breached, never showing up
 The old man's empty cans cashed at the depot, repo my life, it's been a fight to feel equal, snatch
 The groceries out your car when you take the cart back, smoke break, no pack, fuck every things racked
 I'm trying to change, I'm trying to be a man, a wide range of crime seems to be my only plan, I didn't ask for
 This, this asked for me, it's hard to breathe drowning in a sea of misbeliefs I'v, yet to reach my
 Comfort zone I'm, stuck adolescent in a body full grown, people grilling me
 Accurately pre conceived notions of my emotional stability, telling myself, things will be okay
 While my other self says fuck life, die slowly!
 I close my eyes, and
 All I see is black
 Memories from the
 Past don't describe
 Where we at man
 Times change, life
 Rolls on, a strange
 Picture is drawn
 Before we dead and
 We gone now
 I close my eyes, and
 All I see is black
 Memories from the
 Past don't describe
 Where we at man
 Times change, life
 Rolls on, a strange
 Picture is drawn
 Before we dead and
 We gone now