Emptiness Found

a cycle reborn and abused
 pry into subconcious pain
 find these fearful solutions
 pride wears a mask of ignorance
 speak these simple words of balance
 losing tolerance... don't stutter a word
 a kiss... a touch... a knife... my blood
 progression... regression...
 pressed for your time
 my moves are silent
 as i break through loses
 i sat and looked and lost the days
 no simple answers...
 lend a spare hand
 i'll leave behind
 the darkened idea inside
 a plague of neglect
 to my brothers of the past
 the struggle for delirium
 a small white padded room
 a cross-breed instinct
 symptoms of a youth alone
 left behind a soul-less behind
 criminal in the eyes of all
 slap to the face... for disgrace
 a father's pride... fullfill this dream
 i hate pride... not a part of my dreams
 tension builds... idols destroyed
 this instinct... release of all
 glorify pain... for self high
 hands of time... patient stride
 teach others more... personal gain
 these lovely thoughts
 coated in silky sickness
 a depressive contraceptive
 for my actions
 my body and mind stronger
 at youngest point of life
 let this tenderness i have
 fall in flames
 no release... grip... hold tight
 the warm kiss of sensual delight
 touch this smile...
 the locked-down love
 chained deep inside
 a mistrust faith... i can't relate
 lately i can't tolerate
 repress myself... kept my mouth shut
 no longer will i pain myself
 i've got something inside
 that i'll never hide
 no drug-induced thought
 not even an unsober word
 my actions are pure...
 make my discipline heard
 i've lied here for the longest time
 now is the time, make a stand
 i push too hard, nothing too lose
 will not get out... stand-off