Later Days

You said you didn't love me (a lie)
 You said you didn't care (my lie)
 I've spent an eternity destroying this (to myself)
 As if you weren't there (til I die)
 I've lost this taste of inner rage
 A question overlooked from this day-to-day
 Now this time is running low, had to give it away
 Lost this sight, bring it back to life
 Another wasted second to burn myself inside
 Feel all rebuilding to make you repeat it all
 One more dose, another sip
 A few pills at the most
 Breaking this silence
 Of this secure nature
 Not enough rest
 Wondering as you sit and question what went wrong
 Never once offered sanctuary to a truthful cause
 Stop repeating a fault; an apology will end for now
 Slipping into this un-animated world of dizziness
 An empty representation of thought, mistreated wisdom
 Twisted lips speak in vain, for a purpose put to shame
 A double-edged purpose slaying everyone but yourself
 Time is of the essence... patience a blur
 A swarm of thoughts, can't catch a one
 Left empty-minded
 Sitting in these eyes of guilt, outraged
 This barrier for what remains
 Take the disadvantage, a fraction of this life
 Kept close with loss of most
 These lips of misfortune, kissed one to many times
 Taste the truth... the pain
 I've had to gain
 Planning daily... getting nothing done
 Open the hands of a mind-clasped identity
 Taste the bitter blood on these lips
 Taste the betrayal of your unfaithful kiss
 A hindered growth with a grasping head spin
 It will leave one bottled up with a fifth of sin
 To live inside these walls till the day I die
 Totally confined to love held close inside
 Damned to tradition
 Flawless untold superstition
 Trying to find salvation
 An escape from evolution
 Words on top of words
 Towering fortress of this inaction
 These cycles of distrust
 This disease that breeds disgust
 Another for old times sake
 Fell behind in the pack
 No chances, no patience
 Obedience in a mental fraction
 An example of excuse
 The virgin behind logic
 Intimidate this full restraint
 Sink into a lurid thought
 God is dead, love is dead
 Dark thoughts of this un-compassion