Void

I don't know where to start
 I guess I'm sick of always feeling like I've come so far
 What's it like to be happy or be someone else
 At this point it's getting darker I can't see myself
 In this dark room
 This is lifeless
 And it's getting hard to live without a purpose
 Is there more to life, or am I wasting mine
 I guess it's never enough to fill the hole inside an insatiable fuck
 Take me away for every word that I leave to be unsaid
 I think you're better off dead
 I think it's all in my mindset
 Misery my only friend
 I'm always home to welcome you
 Open wounds and padded rooms wont dull the ache, what else is new
 I don't recognize myself in reflections
 I guess it's true, I never learn my lesson
 And I know I'm not sane
 But I'll do what it takes to show I'm nothing like you
 Low life, miserable life we share
 The only thing I have left are blank stares
 Hollow, empty from the start
 You tore my world apart
 And you killed the last bit of good in me
 Like I'm not enough of what I used to be
 I despise reflections staring back at me
 I see the emptiness and I can't look past it
 Commit me
 Take me away
 For every word that I leave to be unsaid
 Misery my only friend
 I'm always home to welcome you and open wounds
 I don't recognize myself anymore
 Staring into this void that's mirrored myself to blame
 Locked in a burning house
 A vessel built to break
 Anchor made from my mistakes
 I feel this guilt
 It's crawling in my skin
 I've been living the same way
 Every single day
 L'appel du vide
 I am the call of the void motherfucker
 Here I am
 I open up myself again
 Just to see
 What I'm really made of
 I think I'm losing it
 I'm not good enough
 Over and over again
 I'm not good enough
 Just let me sink
 I think I'm losing it
 Over and over again
 I'm not good enough
 I know I'm losing it
 Over and over again