so numb it hurts

(Baby, you don't deserve)
 Baby
 I need to know
 If I could stand my heart 'til
 It might be the numbness on repeat, oh
 Yeah
 Get too numb, my heart is in pieces
 You talk shit, complain for no reason
 All these feelings I gotta keep in
 Said you love me, you do not mean it
 Hatred you're hiding, you curse when I'm cryin'
 Not dead, but I'm dyin' inside with no sirens
 I'm locked in my heart, and outside is a giant
 Who picks me apart and then leaves me in silence
 You gotta watch it; I'm too unstable
 I gotta stop it, can't live these fables
 Said that I'm toxic with my hand in my pocket
 Leaving me with no option, but to break this table
 Six months in, got a bruise and such
 Everybody goes mad when you're too in love
 I gotta work on myself, should be movin' up
 But in a small world, there's only two of us
 I need to know
 If I could stand my heart 'til
 It might be the numbness on repeat
 All my days get longer, nights get colder
 Got a brand-new devil up on my shoulder
 No angels here, yeah, no light to show
 Yeah, how am I too weak to meet your quota?
 It's a process, why do I listen to all the gossip?
 Not yet, maybe I'm thinking that we could prosper
 Not sure, maybe you're better without a partner
 My heart hurts, why does it feel like we're taking sharp turns?
 Fuck it though
 I know reality's opposite
 From all the feelings
 That leave when I'm off of it
 Mangled relations that stay in my basement
 It's hard to look down when you live in acropolis
 You're not really mine (not really mine)
 I'm not really yours (not really yours)
 Who's feeling worse?
 We're so numb it hurts
 Baby
 I need to know
 If I could stand my heart 'til
 It might be the numbness on repeat