Knife Thrower

Need to write a letter or screaming would be better
 Just to let some people know that I'm still alive
 Lately I've been thinking that maybe I should change
 But to tell the whole truth I still haven't decided
 'cause most situations
 Are rarely as good
 Or bad as they seem on the face of it
 What's given from the left
 Is taken from the right
 I know all these things 'cause I'm a knifethrower
 Everybody's got a fake smile
 One that they use every once in a while
 Everybody's got a long time
 To practise their lies and their smalltown crimes
 Everybody every now and then
 Can use a helping hand from a helping friend
 Most people got a lot to learn
 I know all these things 'cause I'm a knifethrower
 Try to tell myself that I know just where I stand
 But the conviction that I seek is just not there
 Instead a long line
 Of statements that I've eaten
 And I'll do it again
 'cause I'm a knifethrower
 Everybody's got a wrong mind
 In a wrong head and a horrible timing
 Everybody's being lied to
 By everyone else, including me and you
 Everybody wants a guarantee
 From some so-called god that they can't see
 Most people don't have a clue
 I know all these things 'cause I'm a knifethrower
 It's just a goddamn shame
 That the one without a thing to say
 Always talks the loudest - people listen anyway
 Now if I knew what I was doing
 Then I probably wouldn't do it