Dammit

I have a problem with succeeding
 And my eyes are bleeding
 From staring at the walls and ceiling
 Feeling that sickening feeling
 Working hard is lile breathing to me
 Can't stop; wont stop
 Not afraid of what they think until I make a new beat
 Drop
 Always looking for the next thing
 Got me turned sideways
 Waiting for the right brain clearing
 Move slowly
 I will wager my mind
 For a moment in time
 Remembering that a peice of me
 For you; for you
 So slowly
 I can feel myself turning
 Close my eyes and I'm predictable
 I'm invincible
 For you; for you
 I'm afraid I'm not enough
 I'm afraid I'm not enough
 Circles cycles why do you torture me
 Eyelids, mindful carry the weight for me
 Circles cycles why do you torture me
 Dreamcatcher I'm falling but not to sleep
 Oh you
 Quietly I'm wondering if your weavings are on my side
 Just tell me your alibi
 Cause I don't know
 And I can sleep here anymore
 If I'm thinking of you
 I'm stuck in a game of pretend-sleep
 I always lose this nightmare in the end
 So I think I'll never close my eyes again
 Every thoughts like a ripple in the water
 With the glass on the nightstand filled half-whatever;
 I'm a wanderer, but holding onto her
 Winning is never enough for me
 Mearly meandering my dreams I achieve
 For you, for you
 But still...
 I'm afraid I'm not enough
 I'm afraid I'm not enough
 I'm afraid I'm not enough
 I'm afraid I'm not enough
 (I'm not enough)
 I have a problem with succeeding
 And my eyes are bleeding
 From stairing at the walls and ceiling
 Feeling that sicking feeling
 Working hard is like breathing
 And I can't stop; won't stop
 I don't care what anyone thinks; I'm on top
 But I blink; looking for the next thing
 Got me turned sideways