Embittered

Soured by the years of systematic denial
 Embittered to the rotted core
 Perils of the mirror bane conspires
 A soul's deprivation disrobed
 The very front that saves enslaves
 Content to bathe in wretchedness
 Self negligent to breaking points
 Perpetuate the preferred state of duress
 Delight in spiteful self resentment
 Bear this crux of self disgust
 Paint the four walls black, Let the eyes roll back
 Adhere to the redux of mistrust
 Paint the four walls black, Let the eyes roll back
 Transmute moral weakness into some twisted symbol of merit
 Defecation upon the hand that provides
 Negating a way forward as if in self defence
 Vulgar tongue undercuts the mouth that utters
 Floundering in a paradoxical pretence
 Thwarted by the blaze of your own self hatred
 Seduced by the degradation trails
 Seduced by the degradation trails
 Resent life beyond the grave
 Embittered to the core