Misery

So many times, fucked up been stuck
 too many lies to keep locked up
 i've made these mistakes for that i'll pay
 you wait and see
 self destruction seems to be the only way
 Chorus-
 the truth are lies in me
 anger leads misery
 I'll try so hard to change from day to day
 falling back is all i know
 this book is broken upon,
 the time of death is chosen
 falling down, no turning back now
 I've tried so hard through the years,
 I've tried so hard but only failed
 feels like im always stuck in here,
 my mind this hell
 i feel its time to make a change
 this time we'll see
 i say to you
 dont hold your breath
 you will regret
 i've made an attempt,
 for that i should make a change
 self destruction lies
 i know what you want from me,
 i cannot be what you want