Break My Own

I'm the type to say I forgot your birthday
 Not 'cause I did
 But because I'm afraid you'll think I care
 And I don't wanna be on the bathroom floor in a month
 Crying 'bout all the love that we had and we lost
 'Cause I've been there
 I guess it's easier to shut you out
 Then get used to you being around
 I'll never let you close
 Never let you know
 How much you could hurt me
 I'll keep the upper hand
 As much as I can stand
 So I'll never worry
 About falling too hard
 Letting you break my heart
 That's not how it's gonna go, so
 I'll break my own
 I'll break my own
 And I'll tell you that I suck at commitment
 'Cause then I'll feel like I'm winning
 But there's no prize
 There's just cold pillows and old photos
 And what ifs running circles 'round my mind
 Because it's easier to shut you out
 Then get used to you being around
 I'll never let you close
 Never let you know
 How much you could hurt me
 I'll keep the upper hand
 As much as I can stand
 So I'll never worry
 About falling too hard
 Letting you break my heart
 That's not how it's gonna go so
 I'll break my own
 I'll break my own
 I'm skipping calling someone new at 2 a.m. because I know
 It's so much harder losing you if your numbers saved in my phone
 But sometimes I wish that I were different
 That my heart was more forgiving
 But I still go and break my own
 So I'll never let you close
 Never let you know
 How much you could hurt me
 I'll keep the upper hand
 As much as I can stand
 So I'll never worry
 About falling too hard
 Letting you break my heart
 That's not how it's gonna go so
 I'll break my own
 I'll break my own
 I'll break my own