Depth Perception

Have you looked deep inside yourself
 deep inside myself i am caught
 and you thought i'm beside myself
 deep inside yourself you are not
 and i try to find how i am alive
 you are not alive i find
 and i'm not that girl that you once knew
 that i thought you knew i never was
 I am much deeper than this
 you are now my strangest kiss
 i try to identify myself
 but i'm still lost in my own personal hell
 Have you broken it down within
 have twisted it with my pain
 it simply grabbed and overtook your dreams
 ripped apart your means of fame
 and you're beside the well of my mental health
 I always seem to dwell on your means
 you wish that girl with those blondish curls
 I wish that i could kill that dream
 I can't find myself anymore
 today is the day of redemption
 i can't find myself anymore
 today i absolve your intentions
 to destroy me
 I am bigger than this
 you are now my deepest kiss
 i finally accept myself
 here in my own personal hell
 I try to lock it up and toss away the key
 far away from me where you'll never find
 so you'll dig around with your sorry frown
 try to bring me down to your kind
 I refuse your game i won't fight today
 hell, i'll runaway from you
 I'm much stronger now that i found myself
 when you are beside yourself what can you do
 I am much deeper than this
 you are now my strangest kiss
 I try to identify myself
 but i'm still lost in my own personal hell