the same things happening to me all the time, even in my dreams

I have dreamt about what it's like to die
 And i saw myself becoming shadows again
 Just like i did when i was a kid
 I saw my bones crack open
 And all the things i've been hiding from you spill out
 All the secrets that i never thought i'd tell anyone about
 I am warm and i am bored and i am drifting through this place
 It's no better or worse than anything else that's ever happened to me
 But i wish that i'd never met a lot of the people that i've met
 Not because i don't like them but because i only let them down
 And when you disappoint everyone all the time
 It's hard not to want to die
 Constantly i feel this weird and shameful feeling
 Like im being watched by a thousand glowing, vengeful eyes
 Behind one way mirrors in public bathrooms and in metro cars
 And everywhere i go i know i'm not welcome