Won't Be Me

Worry more, love myself less
 Press eject, forget the reset
 Never hit the rewind, finish it
 On the floor with my old VHS
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 Like a tape you can play me
 Put me in when you're lonely
 Pressure building up 'til my ears ring
 I've still been reaching for the kitchen sink
 That sinking feeling tied my hands and both my feet
 Had to cut the rope, been forgetting how to breath
 And now I'm giving up again
 Another eighty milligrams
 Between the medicine my therapist prescribes
 The angst in my veins and the late night drives
 No one seems to recognize the pain in my eyes
 It's like the chemicals that keep life stable gave up on me
 It's not my fault that I don't understand what makes you happy
 'Cause how can I know fulfillment when I have never felt it
 So don't ask me what you need
 'Cause I know it won't be me
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 Like a fish tank, my head swims
 Ibuprofen for the bed spins
 Death is looking in with an evil grin
 Grinning, turning into gram macing
 That evil smile got me feeling paranoid
 Had me running scared ever since I was a boy
 Now he's coming out again
 Yeah, that's who I really am
 Between the thoughts tucked up in my hollow brain
 The ink in my skin and the scars on my leg
 My life has been rearranged
 My disposition changed
 It's like the chemicals that keep life stable gave up on me
 It's not my fault that I don't understand what makes you happy
 'Cause how can I know fulfillment when I have never felt it
 So don't ask me what you need
 'Cause I know it won't be me
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 Yeah, I know it won't be me
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 It's like the chemicals that keep life stable gave up on me
 It's not my fault that I don't understand what makes you happy
 'Cause how can I know fulfillment when I have never felt it
 So don't ask me what you need
 'Cause I know it won't be me
 That evil smile got me feeling paranoid
 Had me running scared ever since I was a boy
 Now he's coming out again
 Yeah, that's who I really am
 Between the thoughts tucked up in my hollow brain
 The ink in my skin and the scars on my leg
 My life has been rearranged
 My disposition changed