Victim of Humility

Creeping up beside a chair
 Take out my phone there's no one there
 Look down to give my eyes
 A valid place to hide
 A crowd surrounds the loudest voice
 Some laugh but I flinch from the noise
 And inch my way across the room
 To head outside
 Get up, get on my feet
 Drop the humility
 Get up, get on my feet
 It's always blocking me
 From getting where I want to be
 But not tonight, not tonight
 When I hear my voice I pause
 Distracted by performance flaws
 And worry that
 You might not understand my tone
 So I smile and maybe cough
 The tracks are there the train is off
 By now you might agree
 I'm better off alone
 Get up, get on my feet
 Drop the humility
 Get up, get on my feet
 It's always blocking me
 From getting where I want to be
 But not tonight, not tonight
 An overload of empathy
 I'm a self-induced victim of humility
 I'm chocking on timidity
 But not tonight
 Sometimes I'm not feeling strong
 Sometimes it seems I don't belong
 And I'm not up for one more day
 And everything won't be ok
 So I smile and maybe cough
 The tracks are there the train is off
 By now you might agree
 I'm better off alone
 Get up, get on my feet
 Drop the humility
 Get up, get on my feet
 It's always blocking me
 From getting where I want to be
 But not tonight, not tonight
 An overload of empathy
 I'm a self-induced victim of humility
 I'm chocking on timidity
 But not tonight