Masochistic Healing

Will these darkened memories last
 Will I ever bury my past
 I want to leave this world behind
 All this time I've been waiting for a sign
 I've been suffering so long
 The pain has grown far too strong
 Can you show me the way?
 Staring at the ceiling
 I'm trapped inside these walls
 Forged by uncertain hands
 Cut me open, bleed out the darkness
 Sheathe the blade upon the mess I've made
 I know this place, I've been here before
 The dark clouds follow me
 Don't you know this face, you've seen it before
 Can you hear my cries?
 Am I suffocating?
 Am I hallucinating?
 Dread pulls me to the ocean's floor again
 Will I ever be the same?
 Bonded by suffering
 A dissonant voice calls
 "Relinquish your pain"
 Hurt myself, blood stains the floor
 I'm dying to feel alive
 Am I suffocating?
 Am I hallucinating?
 Dread pulls me to the ocean's floor again
 Will I ever be the same?
 Will these darkened memories last
 Will I ever bury the past
 I want to leave this world behind
 All this time I've been waiting for a sign
 I was the fucking architect of this madness
 That built my sadness
 But I blamed it on the world
 Yeah I blamed it on the world
 Redefine this dark mind
 Redefine this dark mind
 No more suffocating, no more hallucinating
 No more suffocating, no more hallucinating