Epilogue

In a nightmare
 I am falling from the ceiling into bed beside you
 You're asleep
 I'm screaming, shoving you to try to wake you up
 And like before
 You've got no interest in the life you live when you're awake
 Your dreams still follow storylines
 Like fictions you would make
 So I lie down against your back
 Until we're both back in the hospital
 But now it's not a cancer ward
 We're sleeping in the morgue
 Men and women in blue and white
 They are singing all around you
 With heavy shovels holding earth
 You're being buried to your neck
 In that hospital bed
 Being buried quite alive now
 I'm trying to dig you out
 But all you want is to be buried there together
 You're screaming
 And cursing
 And angry
 And hurting me
 And then smiling
 And crying
 Apologizing
 I've woken up, I'm in our bed
 But there's no breathing body there beside me
 Someone must have taken you while I was stuck asleep
 But I know better as my eyes adjust
 You've been gone for quite awhile now
 And I don't work there in the hospital
 They had to let me go
 When I try to move my arms sometimes
 They weigh too much to lift
 I think you buried me awake
 My one and only parting gift
 But you return to me at night
 Just when I think I may have fallen asleep
 Your face is up against mine
 And I'm too terrified to speak
 You're screaming
 And cursing
 And angry
 And hurting me
 And then smiling
 And crying
 Apologizing
 You're screaming
 And cursing
 And angry
 And hurting me
 And then smiling
 And crying
 Apologizing
 You're screaming
 And cursing
 And angry
 And hurting me
 And then smiling
 And crying
 Apologizing