Fluoxetine

Here's my companion
 Ageless and old, hovering behind
 It's in the house, but
 In some other room that I never find
 Too numb to see through
 Its simple disguise
 Something is moving
 Another dark thought that it will surround
 It might mean release, but
 I'm miles away when it comes around
 Combing through pieces
 I don't recognize
 And all that I want
 Is to leave all the big questions open
 So take all my unknowns
 And buy all that somehow could be owned
 With patents on my mixed emotions
 What gets to me is
 What if it's all I'll ever be again?
 A dose of defenses
 A daily dissolve of anything within
 A chemical façade for anything
 I might devise
 And all that I want
 Is to leave all the big questions open
 So take all my unknowns
 And patent all my mixed emotions
 And all that I want
 Is to somehow feel something forever
 But all I know is that I don't
 I can't even write what I'm feeling
 I can't even write what I'm feeling
 I can't even write I'm not feeling