I'm Not Getting Excited

I'm not getting excited
 'Cause the thrill isn't mine to invite in
 Just the chill when I learn
 That it's finally my turn
 I have finally earned
 My place in the urn
 And I take a fall
 But I keep my hands soft
 I keep my body limp
 And I move with the wind
 I'll go where it bends
 And the goal or the expectation
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 I'm not getting excited
 'Cause the line on my phone's got me hiding
 When it flashes at night
 It's the bringer of signs
 I can it see through my eyelids
 I know that it's time
 And I hold it all
 But I keep my hands soft
 For the answer in asking
 My thoughts are a wreck
 And there's no point untangling
 The thought from the action
 I'm awake
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 WhIy is it like the other side
 Where all my vital signs are fading away
 Violent dreams keep me awake
 I wear the same face in the morning
 A warning
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 I'm not getting excited
 'Cause my fight and my flight are divided
 And so I don't enthuse
 Keep my grip on joy loose
 And I wait for the news
 With my feet in my shoes
 And I lose it all
 With one foot out the door
 When I smile, I lie
 With my eye to the side
 So I agree with goodbye
 I agree with goodbye
 Yeah, goodbye
 But why is it like the other side
 Where all my vital signs are fading away
 Violent dreams keep me awake
 I wear the same face in the morning
 A warning
 A warning