Survivor's Guilt

In this tidal wave I cannot breathe
 The sinking sun and rising sea
 Is all that will be left when the morning comes
 The perfect storm to seal our fate
 With every gasping breath I take
 I swore I wouldn't let you go this way
 I chased and fought with no prevail
 You took the wind out of my sails
 Then came the thunder as we're swept under
 The waves that separate
 It's hard to let the past be history
 It's hard to close the chapter on
 All these memories
 If there's a remedy I can't find it
 If there's serenity I don't buy it
 It's hard to let the past be history
 I'm at the end of my rope
 On the edge of my seat
 Frozen in my tracks
 Burning to believe
 That my world's not just a shell of what it used to be
 So, I'll carry on I won't fade away
 I blame myself for what I couldn't change
 This isn't the life that you would have wanted for me
 I found myself in the darkest depths
 I learned to fight when I had nothing left
 I came back stronger
 I'll never forget those days I wished would just end
 It's hard to let the past be history
 It's hard to close the chapter on
 All these memories
 If there's a remedy I can't find it
 If there's serenity I don't buy it
 It's hard to let the past be history
 It's hard to let the past be history
 It's hard to close the chapter on
 All these memories
 It's hard to let the past be history
 It's hard to close the chapter on
 All these memories
 If there's a remedy I can't find it
 If there's serenity I don't buy it
 It's hard to let the past be history