Fertile Steps

My life is proof purgatory is real
 Pain is my brother
 Temptation my sister
 Married to Misery against my will
 I tear open my chest
 Let water collect
 Roots grow
 Crack bones
 Fertile steps is my best bet to turn it all around
 Relapse
 Collapse
 Relinquish
 Rebuild
 A slip of the tongue and it falls right out
 Drags along the concrete
 Red carpet to Hell on Earth
 As the streets burn
 On this Saturday night
 Boiling over with anger
 I scream
 Honesty is honesty the foundation of respect
 But none of you would know a thing about that
 Integrity's exactly what you lack
 We're not friends
 We never were
 We're worlds apart in how we act
 The hand i've been dealt
 I will play to the best of my ability
 No one can bluff me into giving up
 Can't stare me down
 Won't ever phase me out
 When I know all the tricks of the trade
 Always one step ahead of the game
 Because I am a repeat offender of the worst decisions in the world
 Can't believe all the things they said would happen have
 And I should know by now
 That nothing good ever happens after midnight
 Fertile steps
 The hand i've been dealt
 I will play to the best of my ability
 No one can bluff me into giving up
 Can't stare me down
 Won't ever phase me out
 When I know all the tricks of the trade
 Always one step ahead of the game
 Because I am a repeat offender of the worst decisions in the world
 Can't believe all the things they said would happen have
 And I should know by now
 That nothing good ever happens after midnight
 I will take back what they took from me