Inside, Outside

For the times I held you close
 For the reasons I can't cope
 Fool me once
 Don't fool me twice
 All the roads I could have chose
 Walked the line that hurt the most
 I keep telling me...
 I'm fine
 No I'm not
 I've barely touched ground
 On my way
 Till I'm safe and sound
 I pick up the pieces, building slow
 'Cause when I am vulnerable it shows
 Inside
 Outside
 It's better to love and to have lost
 So I live to win no matter cost
 It hurts
 This time
 Like counting raindrops in the sunshine
 Never knew with you around
 How the emptiness would sound
 I'm drowning in my noisy mind
 Falling fast and falling hard
 Makes the crash hurt even more
 I blame it on my childish heart
 I'm not fine
 I've barely touched ground
 On my way
 Till I'm safe and sound
 I pick up the pieces, building slow
 'Cause when I am vulnerable it shows
 Inside
 Outside
 It's better to love and to have lost
 So I live to win no matter cost
 It hurts
 This time
 Like counting raindrops in the sunshine
 Like counting raindrops in the sunshine
 Like counting raindrops in the sunshine
 Like counting raindrops in the sunshine
 So I get up and run and run and run
 Just to feel free I run, I run, I run
 Going fast, going nowhere
 Let my hair out and fly and fly and fly
 Got to breathe in new air to clear my mind
 I'm not dead 'cause I'm lonely
 I can feel my blood pumping
 I'm alive
 I'm alive now but there's so much aching in my heart
 No more crying
 No more waiting for you...
 Waiting for you
 I pick up the pieces, building slow
 'Cause when I am vulnerable it shows
 Inside
 Outside
 It's better to love and to have lost
 So I live to win no matter cost
 It hurts
 This time
 So I get up and run and run and run
 Just to feel free I run, I run, I run
 Going fast, going nowhere
 Let my hair out and fly and fly and fly
 Got to breathe in new air to clear my mind
 I'm not dead 'cause I'm lonely
 This time
 That's why I had to write this sad song
 Echoes of the aftermath