Can I Be Aborted, Even Though I'm 29?

Am I dreaming? Am I dead?
 Constant struggle in my head
 Need this comfort, need release
 A paradise where I can rest in peace
 This time I can control
 My fate this world once stole
 Retake my own fate
 Grab a rope and grab a chair
 Feet are going in the air
 May seem careless, may seem weak
 Not your approval I hope to seek
 Left a notebook saying why I did it all over there
 Who am I kidding? No one ever seemed to care
 Any impact I had will just fade away
 Everybody says you can do anything as a young man
 Even though I tried, this was the one thing that I could plan
 Enjoy the ramen I had stashed away