Nightmare

I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
 I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
 They talk shit, but I love it every time
 And I realize
 I've tasted blood and it is sweet
 I've had the rug pulled beneath my feet
 I've trusted lies and so in men
 Broke down and put myself back together again
 Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters
 Collected the pieces and picked out the dagger
 I've pinched my skin in between my two fingers
 And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors
 Come on, could you maybe give me a smile?
 No, I ain't got nothing to smile about
 I got no one to smile for, I've waited a while for
 A moment to say, I don't owe you a goddamn thing
 I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
 I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
 They talk shit, but I love it every time
 And I realize
 That I'm no sweet dream but I'm a hell of a night
 That I'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a night
 No, I won't smile, but I'll show you my teeth
 And I'ma let you speak if you just let me breathe
 I've been polite, but won't be caught dead
 Letting a man tell me what I should do in my bed
 Keep my exes in check in my basement
 'Cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you're complacent
 I could play nice, or I could be a bully
 I'm tired and angry, but somebody should be
 Come on, could you maybe give me a smile?
 No, I ain't got nothing to smile about
 I got no one to smile for, I've waited a while for
 A moment to say, I don't owe you a goddamn thing
 I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
 I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
 They talk shit, but I love it every time
 And I realize
 I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
 I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
 They talk shit, but I love it every time
 And I realize
 Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
 And I'd rather be a real nightmare than die unaware
 Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
 But I'm glad to be a real nightmare, so save me your prayers
 I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
 I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
 They talk shit, but I love it every time
 And I realize
 I'm a nightmare (I gotta weapon in my mind)
 I'm a nightmare (I gotta weapon in my mind)
 I'm a nightmare (The real nightmare)
 I'm a nightmare (The real nightmare)
 I'm a nightmare