Confess

I'm a loser, that doesn't know it
 I'm grounded
 You're an ocean
 I'm swimming in alternatives
 Who knows, where love is
 I'm sorry, I confess
 I need you, I really do
 I want you, I think I do
 I'm a dreamer that's always nervous
 I guess I always sabotage everything on purpose
 I don't wanna be alone again
 I'm using you because I need a place to hide in
 I'm sorry, I confess
 It all began with Roxanne
 I was 5 she was my sisters friend
 Thinking countless pornomags
 I was 6 years old, Thank you dad
 7, I lost a truth or dare
 My older brother's girlfriend met me there
 Movin' to L.A. I'm scared
 Mom and dad are breaking things
 Move again and again, with trauma
 Shut off, I'm numb
 No one cares
 I'm smart and weak, they pick on me
 My father said I don't need friends
 Teenage legs and now I'm strange
 Beat us up with the words you say
 Crash and burn, drink up, OD
 Yeah, high school really emptied me
 Straight A's through UCLA
 OD'd again, I'm on my way
 A liar turned virginity
 For some drunken sex in the dorm room
 Damaged goods, never could
 Then a 100 girls, never good
 Cheat on her, then moving in
 Through worse, and ouch that needle sticks
 Freefall after all, all year, after year
 I had them all
 Drunk and choked, coked I mean
 And suddenly, swinging at Jenny
 Sick of the beach, no where to live
 My mistakes, killed my instead
 Sober in Portland, and everything's perfect
 But guess what, I have nothing left to give
 Do you feel it? I do
 Do you want out? I do
 I'm not okay I confess
 Do you feel it? I do
 Do you want out? I do
 I'm not okay I confess
 Do you feel it? I do
 Do you want out? I do
 I'm not okay I confess
 Do you feel it? I do
 Do you want out? I do
 I'm not okay I confess
 It's better put to rest
 It's better put to rest
 I confess
 I'm a loser
 That doesn't know it