im not good at being happy

I'm not good at being happy
 I'm too used to being sad
 Now I'm the joke and no one's laughing
 Always cancel all my plans
 'Cause I can't take these conversations
 When I'm afraid of what they mean
 I'd rather check out all my friends' lives
 'Cause life looks better from a screen
 (Okay, yeah)
 I'll make my home my castle, my bed my prison
 Now my neck's bent over, my soul needs living
 'Cause I'm locked inside, not inside my room
 But inside my head, I hope I'll break out soon
 And now I'm starving to death, I need dopamine
 Someone to pull me out, someone to make me see
 Look outside myself, look outside a screen
 Or outside my room, it wasn't meant to be (I'm not good at being happy)
 (Being happy)
 I'm too used to being sad (I'm so sad, I'm so sad)
 (I'm so sad, I'm so sad) now I'm the joke and no one's laughing (no one's laughing)
 Always cancel all my plans (all my plans, all my plans, all my plans)
 'Cause I can't take these conversations (conversations)
 When I'm afraid of what they mean (I don't know what they mean)
 I'd rather check out all my friends' lives (all my friends' lives)
 'Cause life looks better from a screen
 (From a screen, from a screen, from a screen)