Under Saturn's Shadow

Here I sit and wait throughout my days
 Waiting for something, for my spirit to ascend
 It's not that I so badly want to die
 But at these times I struggle for desire to live
 Each day it grows worse than the last
 Function divorced from my body
 As Saturn's Shadow falls across my soul
 I'm powerless, until it's passed
 And I'm trying, try to find a way
 Out of the blackness of this tunnel at the end of the light
 And I'm dreaming forever of the day
 Dreaming of a time when life won't be this way
 (Under Saturn's Shadow I have fallen, Under Saturn's Shadow)
 Webs invisible bind my spirit
 In bondage to a force unseen
 Like a candle, this gives my life
 It burns away, it burns away
 Until night's end sleep will not come to me
 Then come restless, fitful dreams
 Eternal slumber calls me to her arms
 After I'm dead, will I still dream?
 Sometimes I dream that I'm alive
 Under the stars, under the sky
 Then I awaken paralyzed to another day that I cannot face
 And I'm trying, I'm trying to find a way
 Out of the blackness of this tunnel at the end of the light
 And I'm dreaming forever of the day
 Dreaming of a time when life won't be this way
 (Under Saturn's Shadow I am glowing, Under Saturn's Shadow)