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I ain't strayed on happiness or feigned content
 But everywhere I go it seems
 It's somewhere that you've been
 From Asheville to Portland
 In airports and vans
 From Arizona to Washington State
 I expect to see you there
 Hiding in the Queens Gate Yard
 Or up along the James
 Making plans of life's patterns
 That somehow lead us back again
 Nathan says he misses your teeth when you smile
 And I feel alone
 And your girl she ain't calm yet
 But we all hope she'll come around
 And I see your parents when I can
 And talk to 'Cole when she calls
 Been keeping busy when the sun is high
 And hiding when it falls
 And I don't feel alone
 When I look up anymore
 You always knew you'd be leaving
 And slowed down with each step
 Keeping time with every stride
 With few words said
 Below Orion's belt in dark skies
 And Fulton Yard in the sun
 On endless cross ties and steel rail black lines
 On high or feeling numb
 And I forgive you quietly leaving
 And I forgive you for what I saw
 You know I'll be alright I heal myself well
 On solitude and alcohol
 I miss the hell out of your stories and your white lies
 And voice calling on the phone
 "just checking in, it's been awhile now,
 Been three days since we hung out."
 Just go on ahead if you need
 I'll meet you when I get there
 Just know I won't go easy man
 I'll kick and punch till there's nothing left
 And I don't feel alone
 When I look up anymore.