Burnout

you can't just change over night
 they say it's all in my head
 so just relax, alright?
 that's what they always say
 they're just getting sick of my shit
 so they push me away
 It's not like I want this for the rest of my life
 but I know if I recover I know
 there are signs of damage
 I'm a fucking burnout, a deadhead
 being pulled along by, I'm dreading
 what put me in this position?
 I've given false hope
 for even thinking I could cope
 with all these dark epiphanies
 where I realize something's wrong with me
 you can't just change over night
 they say it's all in my head
 so just relax, alright?
 that's what they always say
 they're just getting sick of my shit
 so they push me away
 It's not like, I want this for the rest of my life
 but I know if I recover I know
 there are signs of damage
 I'm a fucking burnout, a deadhead
 being pulled along by, I'm dreading
 what put me in this position?
 I've given false hope
 for even thinking I could cope
 with all these dark epiphanies
 where I realize something's wrong with me
 you can't just change over night
 they say it's all in my head
 so just relax, alright?
 that's what they always say
 they're just getting sick of my shit, so they push me away
 it's not like I want this for the rest of my life
 but I know if I recover I know
 there are signs of damage
 and all day long
 I'd worry about everybody but myself
 to keep me from thinking so miserably
 and all day long
 the terrors fissure through my flesh
 and bring out a silfish empathy
 well now all day
 because my terrors have caused decay
 I've become so selfish, I push everybody away
 my dark epiphinies where I realize something's wrong
 wrong with me