Suicide Letter 3

You've your doubles? (A'ight)
 Whoever knew I'd ever end up like this
 All these drugs inside my system, numb the pain on my wrist
 Yeah, the winter coming days are colder times are getting shorter
 Bitch I'm 21 my dreams are fading 'cause I'm getting older
 Oh shit, I think I'm running out of time now
 I wish I knew how it felt, to make you mine now
 I'm dreaming with a broken heart but waking up the hardest part
 So I'ma take these fucking xans until my heart falls apart
 You not in love until you take your own life
 I slit my wrist, and then she left me with a heart full of ice
 Ooh, I'm kinda happy that we didn't work out, but
 Bitch I'm depressed because I'm stuck in my house
 My nigga Victor, he gave his fucking shorty all he had
 He left his friends and got a job because she made my friend a dad
 I'm not goin' tell your business
 Vick I love you like a brother
 But we both know your shorty brought you hell in the summer
 Loves a myth, I'm only telling two stories
 I keep my secrets to myself because you don't have to worry
 You hold her tight so she can bathe me in tears
 She broke your heart and only left you in fear
 I'm not a saint or a demon
 I guess I'm something in between but when I say
 Depressing lyrics, hoe you know just what I mean
 Don't follow in my footsteps
 Strongest might not be the smartest
 I'll fucking go to hell before she treat you like garbage
 Loves a movie, this a page out my chapter
 I lost my faith in fucking god, I start ignoring my pastor
 The devil watching and talking, hear him talk while I speak
 He turn my dreams into nightmares, so I try hard not to sleep
 I'm depressed I'm upset, my eyes red I'm possessed
 Cancel sticks in my ashtray bitch I want death nothing less
 Life ain't fair love is pointless so I just drown in my sorrow
 And I ain't ever get you back, just like the clothes that you borrow
 My nigga Eli lost his life, my nigga Jaysoh lost his mind
 Your ex used you she doesn't need you, hope you feel it in your spine
 You ain't stupid, you ain't dumb
 Take your drugs and just some wine she don't want you, she just need you, I ain't lying (I love you nigga)
 The past is the past, I hope you're forgiving the walls
 Are really getting closer in the room that I'm sitting
 But I'ma hold you down like ankles waist the way I'm gonna make away
 We go'n get Richard, you abouta stay
 I sold my soul