Father

Can you remember
 How you use to jab your fingers into my chest
 And tell me how stupid you thought I was
 And how I'd grow up to be worthless?
 I was only 9 and I can recall every single time
 You raised your hand to me
 No matter how hard I try to forget
 I can't erase it from my memory
 To this day you seem to think that
 You never did anything wrong
 And even though I've tried to look past your ignorance
 The hate was too strong
 But you were to blind to see how much anger
 Was growing inside of me
 And everything revolved around you
 Do what you say, do what you want, do as you do
 As the years passed I never knew what was to come
 'Cause you were never there
 But the day will come when we'll cross paths
 But this time I'll be there to let you know that
 All I ever wanted was was for you to believe in me
 And everyday I prayed for, lived the day for
 Was a chance to throw it back in your face
 And before you die, open your eyes and see
 All the different ways that you neglected me
 You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
 I don't want to be my own father
 And before you die, open your eyes and see
 All the different ways that you neglected me
 You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
 Father
 God help me raise up outta this mess
 Stress and gray days and a gang full of tests
 God help me, God help me
 You put the fear in me and said
 If I wasn't to be everything you expected
 Then a son I'm not in your eyes
 And would be instantly rejected
 Your gifts of love were just fifths of pain
 While I tried to maintain and refrain
 You just laughed at me, looked down on me
 You threw down on me, you made me feel worthless
 Now you're dead to me
 How does it feel to be?
 What runs through you created me
 One day I'll break free
 All I ever wanted was for you to believe in me
 And everyday I prayed for, lived the day for
 Was a chance to throw it back in your face
 And before you die, open your eyes and see
 All the different ways that you neglected me
 You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
 I don't want to be my own father
 And before you die, open your eyes and see
 All the different ways that you neglected me
 You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
 Father
 Why do I have to feel like I'm constantly worthless?
 Every day I'm reminded of you, father
 And before you die, open your eyes and see
 All the different ways that you neglected me
 You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
 I don't want to be my own father
 And before you die, open your eyes and see
 All the different ways that you neglected me
 You may have gave me life but you never gave me hope
 Father