Every Scar

I try to bring myself to write these words
 that you never knew I had the heart to feel
 do I show you every scar?
 resharpen every blade?
 reopen every wound?
 reopen every tomb?
 one moment of clarity,
 could wipe the film from your eyes
 but you sleep contented
 wrapped in your blanket of lies
 I try, for so long, I have tried.
 to save the tears
 the ones you never dreamed I'd cry.
 to bottle them for you,
 so that you might drink
 and not need to see
 what's become of me.
 one moment of clarity,
 shows that your words, are of no use
 one moment of silence
 could bring the awful truth
 all my words
 are stricken down
 your sun is stricken down from my sky
 fading starshine
 was all I had to guide me through that night.
 my eyes strain for release
 from this horrid dream.
 I fear this person that I
 was never meant to be.