Fail Hard To Regain

Well once I knew a railway girl, her age was 17
 I gave her all I had to give, but the baggage of my dreams
 Stole me from the games we played, scorned me for my mask
 And if she's gone she lingers on, I beg you please don't ask
 'Twas on a dark March evening, south bound I did ride
 My head was out the window when I found her at my side
 Asked where I was goin' to, I told but where I came
 For the jails in which I've done my time I fail hard to regain
 Dark girl, dark girl it kills me so to watch you so afraid
 You know that you've been real to those and realness should be paid
 Her eyes gone wide, alive she cried. Does pleasure ever last?
 We live to see, but patiently, I beg you please don't ask
 She took me in despite my sins, fed me tea and such
 And as she fell just like a child, I crumbled 'neath her touch
 I held my breath and appeared to weep but the fragments of my brain
 See each day's but a moment lad, I fail hard to regain
 But as it goes the fiddler throws our values to the street
 Whole world's pain and sayings as gay as impatience in his field
 And captives of this Wall Street trade, we curse our mortal tasks
 Forgive us though we all must go and where to, please don't ask
 And now I am a misspent man who knows not where he's been
 And oh so sapped with sufferin', the worst is yet unseen
 Renounce myself for further wealth, I take each breath in vain
 Still haunted by that railway girl, I fail hard to regain, hey