Tests on My Heart

If they did tests on my heart
 I think that maybe they would start believing
 All the stories that I tell them
 Like how sometimes I can barely breathe
 For no apparent reason other than I thought some bad thoughts
 These nerves are falling apart
 And my fingernails stay short
 I keep telling myself "You've got to get over yourself"
 I don't want you to save me
 'Cause what if you did, you'd succeed
 And then you would get bored and leave
 I'd be back at square one
 And that is such a bad place to begin
 We sent all of our sins into the sea
 And we set it on fire, we're an island now
 I don't know if I can take the pressure it creates
 To be a self-sustaining industry
 So we'll tell ourselves we've got what it takes
 And all we need is a little time to dry off
 I don't want you to save me
 'Cause what if you did, you'd succeed
 And you would leave
 I'd be back at square one
 And that is such a bad place to begin