When Will My Emo Phase End?

It doesn't make sense to smoke cigarettes to relieve my stress
 But I can't help it
 I guess I'm just used to being abused and forgotten too
 It feels so cruel
 It doesn't matter how I feel
 It's no big deal
 I'm forced to conceal
 I guess I'm just used to being insulted
 Didn't sign up for this
 This isn't what I wanted
 I'm the blame
 I'm the blame
 Blame me for everything
 'Cause you claim
 'Cause you claim
 I'm the blame for everything
 I'm the blame
 I'm the blame
 Blame me for everything
 And you've made
 And you've made
 Me think that I'm deranged
 No
 Life has strengthened it's hold
 So
 It might crush my bones
 In case this is all
 Meaningless from the start
 I can't make it up
 Every memory attached
 Make up or simplify
 I need someone to tell me it's alright
 When the truth is I know nothing ever gives away
 Security
 And it's crushing the walls i've reconstructed
 This is all just a game to you
 But there's no cheat codes for me to use
 You don't know what you do
 What you put me through
 Yeah, you shattered my glass
 And all I can ask for is a vacuum to suck it up
 You're the reason I get so upset
 You're the reason I slit my wrists
 So
 Life has turned so cold
 I just want to know
 Why I can't live my life
 I just need to die