Denied Suicide

Forge my path to hell following the will the needle my life
 Losing touch with me numbing parts that bleed medicine the poison
 Demons guides my hand destroying myself sleep deprivation
 The needle I crave affliction a savior death my mate
 The needle that bleeds the needle that saves nature's path broken
 Pain is the path through blood runs hate through flesh the gate
 Discipline gone saw through the lie death is coming
 Just one more time it keeps me alive denied suicide
 Kept alive through feeding tubes narcotics in ever draw
 Keep thinking of one thought that I want to be no more
 Alone now I clench my gun and contemplate the end
 Tears are gone as I exhale and start to begin
 Forge my path to hell following the will the needle my life
 Losing touch with me numbing parts that bleed medicine the poison
 Demons guides my hand destroying myself sleep deprivation
 The needle I crave affliction a savior death my mate
 Broken dreams of a promised life erodes from my mind
 Is this what was planned Is this all there is to find
 I can no longer see myself doing anything
 Denied my death denied my life a thousand times