My Mind

I just said i wanna go Got into my car
 I hit the accelerator really slow
 Moving to the bar I park my car
 I took my wallet Its an hour ago
 Where am I now I don't really care
 Guess what, I don't really know
 Oops I am inn the bar
 Sipping on the vodka
 Drinking alcohol
 In this broke glass
 Why am i in this class
 Why the teacher playing jazz
 Brain is messing again huh
 Go to doctors, get it checked
 Or flirt with nurses and get... hmmm
 Wait wasn't i locked up in my room for three days
 Crying with my ugly face tired to run this life race
 I am in broken phase like a Roller coaster in my brain
 Like is this what they keep calling pain?
 Is this really pain?
 Look i really had to let you know
 That iam not ok
 Iam not doing fine or doing great
 Iam just suffering everryday
 Its my mental state
 Am not lost, not too fast
 Or my path i should find
 Its my head in my mind
 They call it disorders
 I call them curse
 They say live in reality
 I live like a mess
 I don't know what is real
 I am always stressed
 I don't know what to do
 Rather than eating these meds
 I like to go away for the moment
 Somewhere I feel real
 Somewhere I can see clear
 Just to be lost in the woods
 Rather in my mind
 They look up like they care
 Please don't act kind
 My brain has lost control
 Tried to drive it positive
 It doesn't listen to me
 It just goes opposite
 Yea its negative
 And yea of course its killing me
 But i just let it be
 Let it be, let it kill me
 I don't care any more
 Do you care thou?
 No right? So just let me go
 Its my mental state
 Am not lost, not too fast
 Or my path i should find
 Its my head in my mind