As Fear Became Reality

Still sleeping
 I feel the rising of my pulse
 Tonight I'll find a way to end it all
 Still breathing
 Collecting thoughts inside my head
 I don't know what the fuck is going on
 I always like I am okay, but now I cannot wait to find a way outside
 I thought I'd live another day
 Forever I'll be caught inside this painful lie
 As nights go by so divine
 I realize that I'll be plagued by my own demons (I am caught by my own demons)
 Forever living a lie
 I'm not free
 Endless suffering
 I feel the pain because I cannot close my eyes
 Tonight I'll watch myself die again
 I know that I am just spiraling away from reality
 Drowning in the sorrow of the shadows of the night
 There is no cure for me
 I'll watch myself waste away
 A broken entity
 I'm just a memory that's why there is no cure for me and I'm trying to forget the fact that everybody wants to watch me burn
 Amongst this mess I was a normal person just like everybody else, but I've changed for the worse
 I have changed for the worse
 I'll never be the same man again
 I have lost the fight
 Another day, another night, another week, another fucking life
 There is no cure for me
 I'll watch myself waste away
 A broken entity
 I'm just a memory that's why there is no cure for me and I'm trying to forget the fact that everybody wants to watch me burn
 Amongst this mess I was a normal person just like everybody else, but I've changed for the worse
 Still sleeping
 I feel the rising of my pulse
 Tonight I'll find a way to end it all
 Still breathing
 Collecting thoughts inside my head
 I don't know what the fuck is going on
 I always like I am okay, but now I cannot wait to find a way outside
 I thought I'd live another day
 Forever I'll be caught inside this painful lie