Self Inflicted Violence

Do you ever look in the mirror and
 Don't recognise yourself?
 I stare into my eyes and they
 Don't stare back at me
 Who are you? Who lives in this
 Body that I tried to escape for so long?
 They say you realise what you
 Had when it's already gone
 Screaming in silence, indulging in pain
 Is this I, or am I going insane?
 Forcing needles down my throat
 Internal bleeding
 Is this reality or am I only dreaming?
 Etched by the eternal tears of sadness
 My face feels sticky as my flesh disintegrates
 Who ought to save me from this madness?
 A cry of anguish resonates as I dissipate
 I'm forcing needles down my throat
 But I feel numb and I want to hurt again
 Remember the little knife you
 Gave me to protect myself?
 It's cutting up my stomach
 Before I stick it in my leg
 My wounds are oozing woe
 But I feel nothing instead
 Time to move on, we have
 No time to wallow in regret
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 It's all in my head
 Screaming in silence, indulging in pain
 Is this I, or am I going insane?
 I don't remember the last time I felt happy
 Maybe I was born with the urge to dwell in pain
 I take the pill that promised to lift the sorrow
 But I feel numb and I want to hurt again
 I want to hurt again
 I'm forcing needles down my throat, feel numb
 I'm forcing needles down my throat, feel numb