Shasta (Carrie's Song)

So far, so good
 You're coming to the bend at the end of the road
 You put a hand to the belly that's foreign more
 With every day like an oversize load
 And you're thinking about clouds the color of fire
 And the scent of an orange peel
 The way Mount Shasta explodes into windshield view
 And your hands steady on the wheel
 So far, so good
 Coffee motel coffee diner coffee, go on
 Styrofoam is drying like the tears that once did flow
 Starting 10 o'clock and ending at dawn
 And you can't go back but you're going back
 And you don't know what you'll say
 You've got half-formed sentences
 Explanations for a life half-broken away
 And they just may
 They'll take you in their arms and then take out their knives
 So you drive on thinking
 So far, so good
 But you can't go on much longer like this you know
 You're all alone in this world no that's not true
 The nice Christian lady told you so
 She was handing out pamphlets by the clinic door
 Saying, "Jesus knows what you've been through
 Take the Savior into your heart my child
 There's love waiting for the both of you"
 Well, you don't believe but you have to believe
 It's still crumpled there in your back seat
 Were you the hero or the worst kind of coward back there
 Putting pavement back under your feet
 Couldn't stand the heat
 Couldn't stand the thought of ghosts with a negative age
 Turn the page
 OK
 So far so good
 You try to sing along to the radio
 But it's not your language, not your song
 It's from some other time ago
 And you're thinking about how someone died that day
 The you that was so carefully planned
 But then again maybe this life is like a sleeping mountain
 Waking up to shape the land
 Calm, calm, let it come, let it come back to you
 Calm, calm, breathe on out, you know you know what to do