Reachin' for Self

Yo, I can't sing but
 I feel like singin'
 I wanna fuckin' sing
 'Cause I'm happy
 Yeah, I'm happy
 Ha Ha
 I got my baby back
 Yo, check it out
 Some days I sit starin' out the window
 Watchin' this world pass me by
 Sometimes I think there's nothin' to live for
 I almost break down and cry
 Sometimes I think I'm crazy
 I'm crazy, oh, so crazy
 Why am I here, am I just wasting my time?
 But when I see my baby
 Suddenly I'm not crazy
 It all makes sense when I look into her eyes
 Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders
 Everyone's leanin' on me
 'Cause sometimes it feels like the world's almost over
 But then she comes back to me
 My baby girl keeps gettin' older
 I watch her grow up with pride
 People make jokes 'cause they don't understand me
 They just don't see my real side
 I act like shit don't phase me,
 Inside it drives me crazy
 My insecurities could eat me alive
 But when I see my baby
 Suddenly I'm not crazy
 It all makes sense when I look into her eyes, oh, no.
 Man, if I could sing, I'd keep singing this song to my daughter
 If I could hit the notes, I'd blow something as long as my father
 To show her how I feel about her, how proud I am that I got her
 God, I'm a daddy, I'm so glad that her mum didn't abort
 Now you probably get this picture from my public persona
 That I'm a pistol-packing drug-addict who bags on his momma,
 But I wanna just take this time out to be perfectly honest
 'Cause there's a lot of shit I keep bottled that hurts deep inside o' my soul,
 And just know that I grow colder the older I grow
 This boulder on my shoulder gets heavy and harder to hold
 And this load is like the weight of the world
 And I think my neck is breaking.
 Should I just give up or try to live up to these expectations?
 Now look, I love my daughter more than life in itself,
 But I got a wife that's determined to make my life livin' hell
 But I handle it well, given the circumstances I'm dealt
 So many chances, man, it's too bad, could've had someone else
 But the years that I've wasted are nothing to the tears that I've tasted
 So here's what I'm facin':
 3 felonies, 6 years of probation
 I've went to jail for this woman,
 I've been to bat for this woman
 I've taken bats to people's backs, bent over backwards for this woman
 Man, I should've seen it comin', what'd I stick my penis up in?
 Would've ripped the pre-nup up if I'd seen what she was fuckin'
 But fuck it, it's over, there's no more reason to cry no more
 I got my baby, baby the only lady that I adore, Hailie
 So sayonara, try tomorrow, nice to know ya
 My baby's travelled back to the arms of her rightful owner
 And suddenly it seems that my shoulder blades have just shifted
 It's like the greatest gift you can get
 The weight has been lifted
 Now it don't feel like the world's on my shoulders
 Everyone's leanin' on me
 'Cause my baby knows that her daddy's a soldier
 Nothin' can take her from me
 Woo!
 I told you I can't sing.
 Oh well, I tried
 Hailie, 'member when I said
 If you ever need anything, daddy will be right there?
 Well guess what?
 Daddy's here.
 And I ain't goin' nowhere baby
 I love you! (kiss)