Everything Alone

I'm always lonely on crowded holidays with your family
 I'm wilted flowers drying by the window pane
 Bumming everyone out
 Throw me away
 We left the party separate ways
 Cause I'm married to the music and my stupid dreams
 Twelve calendars in flames, but you can't stay
 You got tired of waiting around for me
 We'll say it's better this way
 But if I'm being honest it's a bust
 Smoking cigarettes alone
 Instead of doing nothing with you
 Smoking cigarettes alone
 Instead of doing nothing with you
 I'm difficult, exhausted
 Always chasing half baked plans
 Flying through the sky like a saucer
 Darting light speed through each misfired synapse
 You deserve a good life
 With someone who can make it home for dinner
 Order takeout food and hang out on the couch all night
 But I'm a disappearing act, I wander and take flight
 We'll say it's better this way
 But if I'm being honest it's a bust
 Drinking white claws alone
 Instead of watching tv with you
 And if I'm being honest it's a bust
 Doing everything alone
 Instead of doing nothing with you
 Instead of doing nothing with you
 Instead of doing nothing with you
 Instead of doing nothing with you
 Instead of doing nothing with you