Dead Life

I try to keep it together but it's slipping through
 Transitioning to a darker blue
 It's sinking anything that I've ever had
 I've lost lovers, friends just to tell yourself
 Dead life, I can't cope with this
 Lost light, lost sight, lost everything
 Grey blood runs through my veins
 Growing and can't be contained
 Self-destructing, I'm self-destructing
 I can tell by pushing you away
 I keep walking, I'm always walking
 I'll never stop until I'm in my grave
 I am on my own
 After months outside
 With nowhere to go
 As light turns to dawn
 Do I still need the sun 'cause
 I've been lying in my coffin
 For two years still thinking often
 This isn't where I'm meant to be
 I don't deserve to finally sleep
 I've been lying in my coffin
 For two years still thinking often
 This isn't where I'm meant to be
 I don't deserve to finally sleep
 Dead life, I can't cope with shit
 Lost light, lost sight, lost everything
 Grey blood runs through my veins
 Growing and can't be contained
 Set myself up
 Fall for the trap
 Making mistakes
 Ignoring the map
 My compases is spinning
 Times only thinning
 I'm in hell still
 Burning at both ends
 I'm at war with the world
 And the way it should be
 Look outside
 I look outside
 I don't want a part of it, don't want a part of it
 I'm at war with the world
 And the way it should be
 Look outside
 I look outside
 I don't want a part of it, don't want a part of it
 I am on my own
 After months outside
 With nowhere to go
 As light turns to dawn
 Do I still need the sun 'cause
 I've been lying in my coffin
 For two years still thinking often
 This isn't where I'm meant to be
 I don't deserve to finally sleep
 I've been lying in my coffin
 For two years still thinking often
 This isn't where I'm meant to be
 I don't deserve to finally sleep
 I'm at war with myself and the man I should be
 I looked in the mirror, he never looks back at me
 I'm at war with myself and the man I should be
 Man I should be
 I looked in the mirror, he never looks back at me
 I've been lying in my coffin
 For two years still thinking often
 This isn't where I'm meant to be
 I don't deserve to finally sleep
 I've been lying in my coffin
 For two years I'm still thinking often
 This isn't where I'm meant to be
 I don't deserve to finally sleep