Angry or Sad

Calm down, you don't want them to find out all this time you've had it wrong.
 Every hope you harbor, gone. You did this to yourself.
 Sifting through all the fallen rain. Looking back, try to call my name.
 All the meaning has gone away and I'm to blame.
 On the cold ground where you left me, I wrote down every time you did me wrong.
 But I still come up with fault tailored for just myself.
 Can't take back the mistakes I've made. Intentions buried beneath my shame.
 Despite our excess of promised change, it's all the same.
 Calm down, you don't want them to find out.
 Your actions formed an open sore, left to fester
 I won't be bored with anymore of your empty gestures
 You locked the door, showed no remorse, left me bleeding
 Just like before, lie to ignore my well-being
 So what was it that we were hoping for? You left my insides all over the floor.
 I know that I'm a burden and a chore. You used to love me, but not anymore.
 And even though you saved me from the edge, I don't expect you to do it again
 Now that I know you're never coming back, should I be angry or should I be sad?